Depression...

You don't have to read this.

I'm going to the doctor within a week. I've tried it before (some months ago, when I had troubles with my shoulder), and it wasn't exactly a good experience. Why do someone become doctors, when they obviously don't care about their patients!? Why don't you care about what I have to say, and only stare into that goddamn computer screen!? 10 minutes, I only get 10 minutes!? No receipts, no smile, no "hope you'll get better"?! I know that it must be kind of boring to always hear people's problems, but it's your f****** job!!!!

Sorry about that... I just needed to get it out of my system...

But there must be something else wrong with me, except inflamation? Because I rarely haven't used my right hand, and not the left hand either (just to draw 3-4 small drawing a week, with my left hand), and even that one is getting painful. I can't believe that has something to do that I use it too much? I've drawn for two years without problems, now my left hand gets problems after only 3-4 months? Well, I just have to wait and see what the doctor says. I've got myself a new one now, so I don't know how that'll be...

I'm tired. I'm sick and tired of not being able to draw. It hurts. Drawing has been my best way to express myself. And now I can't. And I just explode with feelings, because I'm so down at the moment. I can't express myself the way I'd like to. I'm always worried. What if my hand NEVER gets better? It's been some weeks now. My shoulder pain went away, fortunately, but now it's my hand?! What the HELL!? Why is this happening to me?

So here's Frida. I actually got it done.
Sorry for sounding like a complaining emo brat, but to draw without pain, is not a lot to ask.

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